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Firefighting 101: or, God is There For the Dumb Animals Too!


I joined the Elida Fire Department when I was only fourteen years old. When I was fifteen, I took my first classes on firefighting. I had been a volunteer and/or professional fire fighter for twenty-one years when I left Portales, NM to move to Fort Worth, TX in 1995.
During that time, I had only had one workman’s comp claim. An on the job injury which involved a broken wrist suffered during an on-duty ping pong match. I was going for a slam, but miscalculated and knocked the table down. Somehow, as we (the table and I) fell, my wrist wound up underneath the edge of the table. Anyway, more about that later.
After living in Fort Worth and serving in churches for seventeen years, Sara and I left our home for the Texas Panhandle and our new home of Hartley. After a year or so in Hartley, I decided it was time to go back into firefighting and EMS.
The number one rule they teach you is to protect yourself at all costs!
Now, I don’t mean to diminish the many acts of heroism that many of my brethren and sisteren (sp?) firefighters have performed over the years. Saving lives and property is what we live for. And it’s really special when it works right and that happens!
But sometimes, we are our own worst enemy! On July 1, 2014, my sleep was disturbed somewhere around 6:00 a.m. with the rapid BEEP-BEEP-BEEP-BEEP sound of my pager going off. “Hartley Fire Department, Hartley Fire Department, you are needed for a hay fire at the . . . . . . . .”
I elected not to move. My wife, on the other hand, was anxious to get me out the door. When I arrived at the station, only Jeromy was there. We suited up in our gear, jumped in a fire truck and headed out. It was early, so the small talk, was small.
After we were at the fire for a short time we were joined by three other Hartley units as well as fire trucks from two other departments. Jeromy and I had staked out our territory and had begun knocking the flames down.
For those of you who are unaware, most hay fires are caused by spontaneous combustion. It happens when the hay gets too moist and once it is bailed, it slowly begins to decompose. If too much moisture is present, the process of decomposing with the added ingredient of moisture cause the bails of hay to vigorously over heat. Once the over heating evaporates the unneeded leftover moisture, the hay catches fire.
Because of this process, one cannot really put out a hay fire. What we can do, is protect the non burning hay and the building the hay is in. In our case, this was a pole barn. We knock the flames down, allowing the farm hands to use heavy machinery to move the bails (which weigh around 2,000 pounds each) out of the barn and place them somewhere where they can spontaneously combust without causing harm to anything else.
After we had been fighting the fire for two and a half or three hours, taking turns on the hose and the pumps, an unusual event took place. Some of the hay had begun to fall. The bales were stacked four high and I was on the hose. At one point, I decided to move my inch and a half line in order to get a better angle of attack. But my hose was snagged! I traced the hose back around a corner of the hay stack and found that four bales, stacked one on top of the other and all on fire, had fallen on my hose!
Actually, only one bale was on the hose, but it was still too heavy for me to be able to move the hose. I was wearing full protective bunker gear, but no mask or air pack. Up until this moment, I had been careful to place myself upwind of any smoke. Now, seeing my beloved water hose, pressurized to about 100 psi, trapped beneath a literal ton of hay, I jumped into action.
Without thinking of my own safety, I jumped into the barn (they tell you in class to always think of your own safety) and grabbed a portion of the hose near the bale. I began to pull. Then I began to yank! Then, I began to think that this was not working because the hose hadn’t moved at all.
So, without a mask or an air pack, I grabbed another firefighter to help me. As she attempted to pull the hose, I frantically began to shred the bale, flinging chunks of hay out of the way.
Did I mention the fact that the hay was on fire while I was doing this? There are a handful of probable outcomes for this scenario, but in the end, it worked! After lessening the weight of the bail enough, the volunteer firefighter helping me was able to pull the hose free . . . . and I hadn’t actually started a fire somewhere where I shouldn’t have! God was certainly watching over the situation!
Looking back, that is not the last time that I recognized God’s providence in that day of my life! After returning to the nozzle and spraying water for a few more minutes, I realized that the heat I had been enduring, coupled with the extreme straining and rapid activity, had taken it’s toll. I was exhausted! I was barely able to hold on to the nozzle. So putting down my ego, along with the nozzle, I returned to fire truck for relief sooner than I thought I should.
I sat down on the back of the fire truck to monitor the pump and the water level of the tank which was being fed by a large tanker from another department. After drinking a bottle of water and sitting there for about ten minutes or so, I began to notice a couple of things: The pain had subsided. But I was getting worse. My vision suddenly faded to black and then returned.
I don’t consider myself a genius, but I did recognize that loosing one’s vision is not normal–even if it is for just a few seconds. I was feeling very tired and weak, and decided that I was overheated. I spotted Jeromy and waved him over to tell him that I needed to go sit in the truck. I thought I would remove my coat, sit in the air conditioned cab, relax, drink some more water, admit defeat and begin recuperating.
Instead, I stood up and became very dizzy. I asked Jeromy to assist me to the cab. Instead, he apparently assisted me to the ground. I was out! I eventually came to and as I woke up, I noticed a handful of faces all staring at me. I didn’t really care, but it just seemed a bit bizarre. After sitting there on the ground for a few moments, I realized that I was reclining against Jeromy. I don’t know how he got back there.
Almost suddenly, I was wide awake and feeling better! I was sitting in and surrounded by a great deal of mud created by the leaking hose connections of the various fire trucks. I overheard someone ask, “How are we going to get him to the ambulance?”
Someone answered, “We’ll bring a backboard over here and carry him.”
I spoke up, feeling much better, but still not quite right and volunteered to walk (with assistance) to the ambulance.
After arriving at the ambulance, I began reflecting on the situation and what I could have done differently to have avoided it. The first thing that came to mind was that I should have found a safer, less taxing way to get the hose loose.
The second thing was to remember that when someone volunteers to carry you to the ambulance, let them carry you! When we got to the ambulance, I was done! After being loaded into the ambulance they took my blood pressure and, along with other significant signs, found that I was in shock. I didn’t really care.
I am not one to hurry death along. I’m the least bit suicidal. But at that moment, I knew for certain that I knew my Savior and He was with me! And I really didn’t care if I lived or died. It wasn’t that I wanted to escape the situation or that I was in such excruciating pain. I actually had no pain at all. And I was okay with fighting for life. I’m just saying that I know where I’m heading and on some level, look forward to being there with my Lord!
Not being able to catch my breath was a little disconcerting though. I was sweating heavily, and they couldn’t get me to stop long enough to get the sticky pads on me to do an EKG. When they finally did, It showed that I was having an acute heart attack. Tim was able to start an IV, but wanted a second one. He couldn’t get it. Scott couldn’t either, and they began transporting me to the hospital.
The one IV and a breathing treatment was enough to make me feel much better by the time we arrived at the hospital. An x-ray or two, some lab work and an EKG later, and I was on the way to the airport to be flown to Amarillo. I hate flying, but the flight wasn’t bad and was un-eventful.
Once at the hospital, they quickly moved me to the “Cath” lab where they found two completely blocked arteries. Two stints later and more labs and EKG’s and I was on the way to a room in the Cardiac Care Unit.
I had indeed suffered a massive heart attack, but by the grace of God, I have no residual effects from it! I am still on lifting restrictions due to the incision for the catheter. As I look back, though, I can definitely see the God of Heaven watching after one of His children who was definitely not watching after himself.
First of all, if any one thing had gone differently, I would most likely not be here writing this. If I had made it to the front of the truck, I probably would have died either in the time it would take for someone to check on me, or would have been too far gone to be saved. God’s timing through all of this, left me with a heart that apparently had narrowed arteries, now repaired. And no heart damage, no brain damage, no nothing! The final results could have been dramatically different, but God knew exactly what He was doing. And I’m okay with that!
I credit the overall outcome of my situation to some great firefighters, doctors, and nurses–a whole team of great folks! But I had many, many people praying for me, pleading my case before God Himself as well. Ultimately, my healing was due to the fact that God heard His people and answered their prayers!
The peace that I had all during this is confounding even to me. But I know it did not come from a frantic, last second cry for help. It came from a lasting, growing, love relationship that I’ve had with Jesus Christ since I was nine and is rooted much earlier than that.
My wife Sara has a very similar relationship with Jesus. She heard the pager go off when an ambulance was sent to the fire scene she knew I was at. Sara prayed for whoever was involved, but said she had a feeling it was me. Sara said she knew that everything would be okay because of her relationship with Jesus. She did not know whether I would live or not, but she knew it would be okay. It might be hard, but it would be okay.
Several of my friends have already expressed their relief that I’m okay. Many even seemed to be surprised that I’m as okay as I am. Most seem to reflect that the most important thing is that I made it through the event. The most important thing to me however, is that I was ready to go be with Jesus!
Are you?

Christmas Memories


Christmas TreeA few years ago I was asked to write a Christmas memory for a church publication and thought this would be a good time to pull it out and post it here:

There had been a deluge of the white stuff the day before. Now, everything was calm, quiet and dark-white. And knee deep. Of course, the snow was just barely over my dad’s ankles, but he was tall and I was masquerading as a seven year old, having just had a birthday the day before.

So, it was a semi-dark and peaceful night. Well, it was really very early morning. Around four a.m. I didn’t even know they had a four o’ clock in the morning. My dad had gotten me out of my pseudo-warm bed and took me out into the dark to show me what Christmas meant to him. It had sounded far more impressive the night before.

As we set in the cold cab of his pick-up truck waiting for the heater to warm up, Daddy reminded me that I would have to stay as quiet as a thief. I didn’t really know any thieves, so I had no real benchmark to go by. We drove a few blocks in the freshly fallen snow and arrived at a vacant house where my dad pulled into the driveway. Actually, there was no driveway, but if there had of been one, we would’ve been parked where it should’ve been.

We got out of the warm truck and I landed in the knee deep stuff that was in drifts as high as my head. Daddy gave me a look that made me realize that I was actually telepathic. And I didn’t even know what “telepathic” meant! But I got a really clear-buoyant message that Daddy didn’t want to see foot prints in the drifts so, against my primal urges, I walked around them.

As carefully as I could, I marched forward in the cold. Eventually, we arrived in front of an old, broken down house and hid behind an elm tree near the front yard. Daddy whispered to me, “Stay here, don’t move, and don’t make a sound. I’ll be right back.” With that, he carefully scampered (not unlike the Grinch) to the front door, where he laid a large, still-dirty feed sack, filled with brightly wrapped packages. Through the process of delivering the packages, my dad seemed to be really invigorated. I was just tired and cold!

Back at the pick-up, Daddy started the engine and more importantly, the heater. We drove down to the town square in our very small desert town. Earlier, in the dark of evening, the Christmas decorations had been all lit up. But now, these decorations were all dark and barely visible. Daddy made me get out of the heated cab and walk into the cold, dark park with him.

On one side of our decidedly Christian square was a life-sized nativity scene made of plywood. We walked up close enough to be having a conversation with some of the shepherds. The wise men looked different from up close and I began to notice things that I had not seen before. Then, Daddy began to explain the birth of Jesus to me. I had probably heard the story in some form or another a handful of times by the time I was seven, but somehow, it had never had the impact that it did that night. Standing there in the snow, Daddy told me of how Jesus was born to a poor, traveling family with no place to stay. Daddy explained to me, that they were placed in a make-shift room that used to be a house for cows and sheep.

It was probably cold. It was mostly dark. And just like Daddy and I, Joseph and Mary were the only ones stirring in that small town at that hour. And God chose that moment and that place for the King of Glory to arrive in our world. Daddy explained to me that he had used a dirty feed sack to deliver Christmas packages to a needy family because it just seemed a little more like Christ. Jesus had been born into a dirty stable and his first crib had been a feed trough for sheep. If anyone had looked at the outside, it would have seemed a little less than regal. But there were some shepherds who had been given some inside information telling them to look inside.

Daddy told me that the most important part of Christmas is to show Christ to the world around us. We do that most by letting the world around us see Christ at work in us.

This Christmas, I am reminded to show Jesus to someone who needs Him. Will you join me?

Live Life On Purpose!


ALBUQUERQUE, New Mexico was the scene. I was sixteen and Billy Graham was coming to the University’s “Pit!” The place where the UNM Lobos play basketball. My parents allowed me to drive to Albuquerque with a friend to attend two nights of the crusade. Dr. Graham has been one of my heroes ever since I became aware of him. He preached in a way I could relate to. He made sense. I’d seen him numerous times on TV and now, I wanted to see him in person.

I remember sitting in the arena, just far enough from the stage that we couldn’t clearly make out the faces of the people who were coming and going. Every once in a while, a small group of men would emerge from the tunnel and make their way to the stage. Each time, I would strain, trying to see if Dr. Graham was among them. A couple of times, we thought we saw him. But each time, it turned out to be one more of a litany of dignitaries that had been allowed to sit on the stage.

Finally, after what seemed to me to be way too long, something dramatic happened. It started out innocuous enough. Another group of men emerged and separated themselves by forming a type of walking circle from two very tall looking men in the center of the circle. One had jet black hair and the other was white headed. Even before the lights went dim and a spotlight illuminated them, I recognized these two men as Cliff Barrows and George Beverly Shea. I tried to contain my excitement because I knew what would happen next. Sure enough as someone at the pulpit said, “please welcome . . . “ I could see another group just like the one in the spot light. But this one was make it’s way in the pseudo darkness, but with the swirling lights fit for a rock band, occasionally one would cross the second group and the two men in the middle. Both men were tall. One was wearing a black suit with a black shirt and had a full, teased back head of hair. The other, no less distinguished was Billy Graham. I was already on my feet waiting for them to introduce Billy and the man in black–Johnny Cash.

You’ve probably been in a similar situation. Excited anticipation of someone or something coming your way. And at least in my case with Billy Graham, the anticipation was rewarded by the way he entered. With a security entourage in tow, Billy Graham and the other three mentioned, all entered with a certain swagger. No hesitation. No doubt of where they were headed. They entered with purpose.

Jesus did that when He went to Samaria. He did it in most of the things that He did. And He did it again when led the parade into Jerusalem for the most memorable coronation ceremony in history:

35They brought [the donkey colt] to Jesus, threw their cloaks on the colt and put Jesus on it. 36As he went along, people spread their cloaks on the road.  37When he came near the place where the road goes down the Mount of Olives, the whole crowd of disciples began joyfully to praise God in loud voices for all the miracles they had seen:

38“Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord!”
“Peace in heaven and glory in the highest!”

39Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to Jesus, “Teacher, rebuke your disciples!”

40“I tell you,” he replied, “if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out.”

–Luke 19:35-40, NIV ‘84

  • Jesus came to establish a “love relationship” with us.

When we actively express our love toward someone, and we are really sold out about expressing that love, it is said that we are “worshiping that person.”  The crowd was “worshiping” Jesus by expressing their love and adoration to Him.

“Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.”

–Jesus, (John 17:3, NIV ‘84)

  • We were told the greatest commandment is to love God.

37“‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ 38This is the first and greatest commandment.

–Jesus, (Matthew 22:37-38, NIV ‘84)

  • We most often express our love for God/Jesus through our worship.
  • In the Luke passage above, we find Jesus riding into Jerusalem and the masses are worshiping Him!

In many ways, Jesus was being tempted in this moment. “How”, you say? Look at this passage of the temptation of Christ:

8Again, the devil took [Jesus] to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. 9“All this I will give you,” he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.”

–Satan, (Matthew 4:8-9, NIV ‘84)

  • We are told that Jesus was tempted in the desert after His baptism.
  • But Satan continued tempting Jesus at every opportunity.
  • In the two previous accounts above, Jesus remained focused on His mission.
  • Jesus could not remain in the moment. He had come in part to establish a love relationship with us.  But now that the people were worshiping Him, He couldn’t allow Himself to get caught up in that.  He had another task to do.
  • He had to continue His journey, His mission, His task.  Every step Jesus took from this point on was following a shadow . . . . . . of a cross.

Jesus was focused on His mission rather than His desires. He was living every step of His life on purpose! What about us? Do we plot out our mission each morning? Do we plan a moment or two of ministry into our lives each day? Or do we just coast and take life as it comes to us? I wonder, what would Jesus do?

 

Prayer From a Different Point of View


In John 1:1-14, we are told that Jesus Christ was God in the beginning–and remains God today. He was God in Heaven long before events unfolded in the lives of two weary travelers who arrived at a sold-out inn in Bethlehem to celebrate the first Christmas. And He emptied Himself of His glory to become a man (see Philippians 2:7-8). This does not mean that Jesus stopped being God, but that for a period of time, became nothing special in the eyes of men. He was born as an un-welcomed out-of-town guest and his first bed had been a feed trough for hungry sheep just moments before.

While growing up and living as one of us, Jesus looked nothing at all like a god. But Jesus was not only God’s Son, but somehow He was also God at the same time (at this point, it would be good to delve into a study of the Trinity, but alas, that point is not our point).

This article is about prayer from Jesus’ perspective. Think about this: Jesus was perfect as a man, He was the Son of God and He was God, Himself. So what did Jesus spend a great deal of time doing? Praying. Jesus prayed . . . a lot! Often all night long. How long do you spend in prayer?  And if you study the Gospels, you’ll find that Jesus spent a lot of time communicating with us, but when He prayed, He talked with His Father.

We might be tempted to ask the question at this point, why did Jesus need to pray–being perfect and being God? At the root of at least part of the answer, we will find a new understanding of part of what prayer is. The apostle, John, gives us a great glimpse at the personal interaction between Jesus and the Father in John 17.

As Jesus prayed in the garden that night, He continued to waste no opportunity to continue to teach. As Jesus was praying, the disciples were listening (at least until they fell asleep). And so Jesus prayed to the Father while teaching the disciples at the same time–and through the gospel of John . . . . us. So what did He teach us? Some pretty important stuff! In verses 2 and 3, Jesus tells us that He has been given the authority to grant eternal life, and then He tells us what it is. He said, eternal life is knowing God and knowing Jesus. A lot of people that attend church, and some who don’t, know about Jesus. But Jesus teaches us that Eternal life is much, much more than know about Jesus Christ. Eternal life is a love relationship between Jesus and us! That love relationship is expressed in obedience, in worship and in prayer.

Jesus’ prayers were certainly petitions on His behalf as well as on our behalf. He prayed for Himself. He prayed for us. But His prayer sounds a little bit like a soldiers letter home to tell his parents that he’s almost through with his tour and will be home soon. He expresses His concerns. He states His desires for His disciples. And He expresses His love to the Father.

And therein lies at least one of the biggest reasons for prayer. Not the petitions, but the expression of our love. When we have a relationship that is worth while in our lives, whether it be with a spouse, a child, a parent or a friend, we know that we need to spend time with them in order to maintain the relationship. Jesus did not pray because He needed to. He prayed because He wanted to. His sole desire was to do the Father’s will and maintain a love relationship with Him.

We need to learn to pray out of a desire to spend time with Jesus, not just because we have a “shopping list.” It’s certainly okay to ask for things. Jesus tells us to do that, but too often, that’s all we do.

Prayer is our intimate expression of love to and from the Father. Let’s pray!